Tuesday, March 17, 2009'♥
I wonder, do we look at the stars, or are they watching over us.
wonder why i feel the same anger, as when i broke up with J,
yet, R isn't mine to begin with. the anger, of the one i used to love,
to the one i used to hate the most. thou it's not that level of anger,
nor did it last long. it's definitely the same degree of anger.
i kept my promise to you, to be happy while you are gone.
but what about you? did you kept yours? or it was just a lie.
why? i don't know if she did lied to me, or maybe it's not her fault.
it be hard to begin with, let alone to withstand it. let fate decide?
i'm always like this, being so careless bout such stuff. De ja vu?
history repeating itself? maybe, maybe not. not for me to decide yet.
one more step, to reach that point. till then, it's really up to fate.
i'm not great enough to wish for your happiness, i want my own happiness.
sorry i'm so selfish. but this is me. i really wonder why it became like this.
do you really resemblance her in the slightest bit? or it's totally different?
i want to be stronger then this, not thinking so much bout this stuff.
but, i guess no matter how much i dream or wish, i will not give up my happiness,
for that power i always wanted. i'll pursue it, but happily, with my happiness.
i guess i been thinking too much again. life should be simple and happy.
i just want to be happy.