Whee!! had a off day today. had a nice night yesterday.
thanks twinny for showing me how nice bukit gombak is.
a really nice place, thou alot of insects. irritating.
thanks twinny for also teaching me something else. =p
walk from bukit batok to bukit gombak, then to ngee ann poly.
lols. long travelling. oh ya. thanks for the chicken wings too!
really nice. and really sweet of you to prepare everything. thanks.

Why is all these happening. Am i not straight forward enough?
i already said what i wanted. why do you still not get it?
or maybe i am the stupid and foolish one. you're so confusing me.
i hate it like this. i hate everything that's going on now.
screw attachment. waste of my time. for a stupid company.
cheapskate pay so little, fucking earn so much each project.
today on bus, something funny happen thou. i think,
that's the only thing that cheer me up for the entire week so far.
i had enough of retards. can you ALL fuck off please.

i always do my best to make you smile, yet, why are you like this to me.

Sometimes i really wonder, why i even put in effort at all.
wanted to make a nice meal, take to you on thursday.
but someway, somehow, you said until it be hard for us to meet.
Fine. i got nothing else to say. ingredients buy already.
and to think, i'm already very broke, i still go buy for you.
also taken off on friday, just for that one day. now tell me this.
Nevermind. i just have to cook it for myself then.
enjoy a nice sleep on friday night. what else. no point wasting it.
your words are becoming more and more pointless. said as if didn't say.
did things start to take a turn for the worst? or what is going on.
emo? abit, but not worth it. whats with me anyway. must be crazy.
i'm still thinking of things, that only happens in dreams.
not gonna come true. why am i still so foolish.

I wonder, do we look at the stars, or are they watching over us.
wonder why i feel the same anger, as when i broke up with J,
yet, R isn't mine to begin with. the anger, of the one i used to love,
to the one i used to hate the most. thou it's not that level of anger,
nor did it last long. it's definitely the same degree of anger.
i kept my promise to you, to be happy while you are gone.
but what about you? did you kept yours? or it was just a lie.
why? i don't know if she did lied to me, or maybe it's not her fault.
it be hard to begin with, let alone to withstand it. let fate decide?
i'm always like this, being so careless bout such stuff. De ja vu?
history repeating itself? maybe, maybe not. not for me to decide yet.
one more step, to reach that point. till then, it's really up to fate.
i'm not great enough to wish for your happiness, i want my own happiness.
sorry i'm so selfish. but this is me. i really wonder why it became like this.
do you really resemblance her in the slightest bit? or it's totally different?
i want to be stronger then this, not thinking so much bout this stuff.
but, i guess no matter how much i dream or wish, i will not give up my happiness,
for that power i always wanted. i'll pursue it, but happily, with my happiness.
i guess i been thinking too much again. life should be simple and happy.
i just want to be happy.

My sky is so clear and distinct. the transparent promise has become the past.
You, the one holding my hands, yet your smile, can’t clearly be seen.
Did a star had a change of heart. wishes from the past, had all been forgotten.
I can’t even breathe anymore, even wanting to run from my reflections.
Baby, you are my one and only. Both worlds had already changed.
To go back to the past, is easier said than done.
Assured that you’re my one and only, telling you that I love you.
I really love you. Baby, i can’t love you more than this.
it has long past the limit of love.

Sorry for being a bad host.
you came to my house,
and i was so tired i fell asleep.
end up leaving you alone there,
don't know doing what. hahas.
next time things will be different.
i will sure be better to you. xD

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN WEI! 20 already! gratz!
Next, i'm disappointed with myself today. a simple question,
yet i have no courage to ask it. such a simple question.
i fear of rejection, had no confidence in myself. that's why i failed.
i lost the war, not due to the enemy, but due to myself.
this is all gonna change. the next 6months will be a good time.
for me to improve myself. (Note: doesn't mean better person.)
but just to be who i want to be. no matter which path i goes,
good or evil, light or darkness. i'll not give up, and will finish the path.
So, here's a check list what i gonna be doing or improving for the next 6months.
Check List -
1) Determination - i seriously wanna improve it, without it the rest is gone case.
2) Perseverance - thou i already have it, but it can be improve. i SURE it can.
3) Confidence - seriously lacking in this. without it, nothing much can be done.
4) Courage - i'm quite sure this will come with confidence, but still can improve.
5) Charisma - God, seriously need help in this. i sux at this.
6) Patience - i guess it be useful to me.
7) English - since i already decide what i wish to take in university, need this. >.<
8) Fitness - time to get training. NS enrollment very soon. need prepare first.
9) Driving - seriously, need that license of mine.
10) Muay Thai - this is optional. but it be beneficial if i learn it.
11) Dj~ing - optional also. it can turn out to be a nice hobby!
12) Devotion - I doing all this, just for you. no one else. it's just you. =D
13) Double edge sword - then again, it's actually for myself, cause i want you. xD

1 stick + 1 point
2 hours gaming + 1 point
Sleep after 12mn + 1 point
Spend more than $50 a day + 5 point
No all of the above - 1 point
Hit 100, straight back to zer0. payment time.