today, my mood is like totally random..
go DAE, feeling damn sianz, sit there copy examples..
go DAE lab, still copy, but was kinda high,
coz E is for EDDIE! LMAO! jun qi's new name..
go maths, at there depress, din felt like tokin..
nii-san ask me i depress ah, i reply no..
that all.. lolx.. the ppl behind my row damn lame..
say abt me n ying ting.. pls lo! they all also black shirt..
anyhow only.. si bei piss off la.. den mood kept jumping..
go home wanted to study, but totally no mood to la..
my girl, i'm so in love with you, u say wad, usually i listen..
so why isit, you won't listen to what i say de.. i said before,
you don't want to compromise, neither will i..
but i already did alot of times le, even if u din..
really damn sian and tired of it le lo.. Haiz..

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Random song post-
爱像一阵风 吹完它就走
这样的节奏 谁都无可奈何
没有你以后 我灵魂失控
黑云在降落 我被它拖着走
静静悄悄默默地开始入了危险边缘
我的世界已狂风暴雨

爱情来的太快 就像龙卷风
离不开暴风却来不及逃
我不能再想 我不能再想
我不我不我不能
爱情走得太快就像龙卷风
不能承受我已无处可躲
我不要再想 我不要再想
我不我不我不要再想你

不知不觉你已经离开我
不知不觉我跟了这节奏
后知后觉又过了一个秋
后知后觉我该好好生活

Dear, we are meant to be, i will not let go.
Wont'! i know we belong together,
no one will seperate us, NO ONE.
I have no intention of giving you up,
and if there is a need, i will take you and run.
I won't let anything come between us,
i will wait for you, for sure.
I love you dear..


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To all parents:
Respect and trust between parent and child is important,
the child respect you, in return you should at least give some respect.
If you don't trust your child, how you expect them to be happy?
If you are forever controlling them,
they can never to learn to depend on themselves.
No one say cannot control, but is give freedom,
bit by bit, slowly at a time.
As if you never been a child before,
as if you never know before how much you wanted freedom.
Is it cause you didn't have it before,
so you deny your child of it too?
please don't be so immature.
Learn to be a proper parent.

Hey you all! Class AVT 11!! i am so not love sick ok!
Its call being deeply in love ok! ROAR!!
i just think of her a little more,
miss her a little more,
day-dream of her a little more,
look at her picture much much more..
liddat only ma.. liddat also cal love sick meh?
Speaking of sick, nii-san must take care ah..
look so so sick la, face so pale.. make me worry..
today saw dear again, so sorry make you so paiseh..
so many of my frens came with me.. haha!
den u zhao so fast.. bo wait for me de..
Send u to imm den went to work again..
den go home n here i m blogging!
n tats abt it! l0ves dear =)

so long bo blog le.. shall blog today! wahhahah!
today woke up at 6 to go find dear.. end up she so zhu..
slp dao 8 plus den wake up.. zao zhi dao i slp longer also..
haha! den jiu slack ard, take pics.. den dar go bugis..
go pray pray.. her o lvl results, not bad la..
promise to give her a treat coz of her result..
but gt no idea wad she wans to eat thou.. haha!
and den, i pon com pro.. WAHAHAHHAHAHA!
cant believe i did tat.. but still got go for mda la..
stupid lecturer think i deaf, as if i dono next week lab test..
oh well.. then went for work after school.. noe smth?
sit there 3 hr 1 cust nia.. den i settle in 10sec.. lmao..
dear ah.. i'm so deeply in love with you now..
rooted so deeply into my heart le.. can't let you go le..
will you promise to stay with me till the end?
i love you..

Ah.. tiring day.. today went too hyper, use too much energy..
as usual, late for class again.. no nid to say one..
and again, got quiz, and i forgotten bout it..
well.. at least no trouble getting thru the quiz since can use notes..
den after eating, justin say don wan go slack outside class,
then i scold some of them indecisive where they want to go..
then after, i also indecisive, dono wan go library anot..
its so damn funny, during lab, keep watching movie only..
lecturer showing example, all playing ard, poking n tapping each other..
our turn to do? all dono! haha.. tat the funny part la.. hehe..
after which, go maths class, yi jie open door, i walk straight into it..
stupid nii-san keep laughing at me.. and hor, ben and nii-san..
during maths class so funny la.. i took a photo of it!

see their face noe that maths class sianz..haha! today all gt nick names la..
i was called rui-rui(so stupid la).. den nii-san is ying-yang(worst seh)..
at nite went to dinner at revenue house.. JAP FOOD! so nice can..
i ate so much la.. till bloated.. lesson learnt, no 2 mango milkshake at one go..

its too much for me to handle.. but, ITS DAMN NICE CAN! haha!
on the way home, after alight the bus at interchange..
can't believe gt a girl ask for my number.. dono her eyes gt prob or wad..
somemore her fren beside her.. den i just give lo.. hey come on!
i don look old rite? look only like 18 la! n she is 20..
for wad ask my number sia.. don understand ppl nowadays.. lmao..
oh well.. that sums up wad happen today.. hehe.. love dear =p

what the point of you telling me if you don't mean it?
then you try finding excuses to cover for it..
just don't say it in the first place..
then there wont be so much trouble..

today suppose go for red camp open hse, but skipped it..
after that met eddie, den was at bugis.. met dear n her frens..
ate at pasta mania den send dear home..
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your in this world for alot of reasons, not just those few.
yes we are different, if we try hard enough, i know we will last to the end..
yes, i did say we are not meant to be.. but why let fate control us?
we should control our own fate.. a promise.. i wanna be with you till the end..
i love you too..

what i said hit the jack pot right? this is the way it is..
i said what i wanted, the rest is up to you to decide..
you want me, i will be there, if not,
i will just disappear from your sight..
words are nothing more then words if you don't do anything..
you can tell me how much you felt that way,
but the fact is, that not really how you felt..
if you want, go ahead, break my heart,
do whatever you want to it..
break it to a million pieces,
give it to someone else..
i won't feel the pain anymore,
not much left in the mind,
no pain, so suffering,
almost just a blank,
but just plain hatred left..

我不配-
這街上太擁擠 太多人有秘密 玻璃上有霧氣誰被隱藏起過去
妳臉上的情緒 在還原那場雨 這巷弄太過彎曲走不回故事裡

這日子不再綠 又斑駁了幾句 剩下搬空回憶的我在大房子裡
電影院的座椅 隔遙遠的距離 感情沒有對手戲妳跟自己下棋

還來不及 仔仔細細寫下妳的關於 描述我如何愛妳 妳卻微笑的離我而去

這感覺 已經不對 我努力 在挽回 一些些 應該體貼的感覺 我沒給
妳嘟嘴 許的願望很卑微 在妥協 是我忽略 妳不過要人陪

這感覺 已經不對 我最後 才了解 一頁頁 不忍翻閱的情節 妳好累
妳默背 為我掉過幾次淚 多憔悴 而我心碎 妳受罪 妳的美 我不配

if i had wanted, to change the way things are now, there is 3 choice i can take..
i taken my choice.. may not be what i wanted, but i guess it the best of the 3..
running a fever, walked under the rain again.. wonder how sick can i get..
it felt so nice to be walking in the rain.. rain drops keep falling down on me..
the 9 shooting stars, the 1 wish i made.. my wish came true.. 9th gf..
my favorite number, my lucky number, so was your favorite number too..
zeronine.. was this really what i wanted? i got my wish, so am i regretting now?
your mindless zombie? or just your play toy? the one that only belongs to you..
does not matter anymore.. nothing else matters anymore..
it only matters if your happy or not..

hav i grown up? hav i not?
i don't care anymore..
if i am immature, so be it..
i just need a longer time to understand life..
that all to it.. nth else more..
i won't expect anything more from you..
you have your freedom, i have mine..
like the way things are, even before we met..
will history repeat itself again? we shall see..
Stupid wish, stupid shooting star, stupid me..
可能是久违的甜蜜可能是潮水的来去
把眼泪流成一阵雨能不能够流到你心里
一定是潮水的魔力让海岸也无能为力
就当是生命中的奇迹
改变了天涯海角的距离
可能大雨来得太早(我还不知道)
可是情话说得正好(我还在寻找)
再怎么样寻找
来时路已经找不到
可能缘份来得太早(我还不知道)
可是情话说得正好(我还在寻找)
当我以为再等不到你却突然停靠在我怀抱

Wad with me nowadays.. losing myself so easily..
its so hard to be in control anymore..
why it just seem i can't control my emotions or actions..
do i really hav 2 of me inside? haiz..

Love somehow, just don seem suitable for me..
For the second time i decide to really love someone,
i feel the pain again.. it hurts.. so so much..
why is loving someone so painful..
Maybe i should have stick to what the was..
i thought i would never fall in love again till i met you..
the one i would risk getting hurt again just to be with..
and true enough, really have to get hurt to be with you..
why is it you never really listen to what i say?
or is it that you just cant be bothered?
it may not be a promise, but you know what i was going to do..
and yet you changed the plans, n didn't inform me till i ask?
true, i may not be mum, i cant stop you from going out..
but is it too much to let me know when u will be going out?
where you are when you are outside? or am i being nosey?
is it so hard, to do just something for me, after i done so much for you..
how much i had changed for you.. how much effort i put in..
are you really worth me doing so much for you? i really hope so..
i do love you a lot.. really really a lot.. don't let me down girl..
in the start, you were so afraid that our relationship won't last..
your worried i be playing with you, so much you worried..
but in the end? i m the one that is afraid of this now..
cause i thought you would put in your best, and so i did..
i really did.. i don't know how much longer i can last like this..
i really hope, you would do something, and make me feel,
you are worth me going through so much trouble for,
to change so much for, and the person i can entrust my heart to..
i love you girl..

=( if you say you hate me, then so be it.. i got nothing better to say..
My world is crashing down on me.. I thought i having my perfect life..
To realise, everything was just an illusion.. All is nothing but emptiness..
Everything just making it so hard to go on.. I can't go on anymore..
The feeling of e knife, being stabbed into my hand, really felt great..
I wanna die, just leave now.. I don't want anything to do in this world anymore..

Today.. woke up at 9.30.. saw e sms.. "liao! i gonna be damn late"
n i reply, "i just woke up".. power hor? late for class by 1 hr 10min..
but teacher bo scold la.. so nvm la.. don care.. at MDA class more funny..
red campers visit our class, just to see some ppl watch youtube,
some ppl playing dota.. den e lecturer was like dots.. but don care la..
after tat go home rest awhile den go work le.. during work, suddenly so emo..
maybe is wad shiying said la.. den felt like seeing my girl so much..
very very emo lo.. totally no mood at all.. but den, Yi ling n Tze ming came..
they come find me go dinner, end up no one eat.. zhao zhi dao go fetch dar..
den can see her.. den i wont miss her so much le.. told her so much bout my past..
she say i so bastard sia.. which is true la.. but all tat gonna change..
just bcoz of her.. i will change bcoz of her, don wan be a bastard le..
must treasure her.. i love you dear x3 081207

First day of school for this year.. get back common test result..
think gt god-like sia.. maths 95, DAE 96.. power la.. nan de i so pro..
must celebrate for myself.. hehe! today after maths went to find Dar..
suppose she end at 4.30, i end at 5.. end up i 4 end, she 5.30 end -.-
den i go fetch her at MI lo.. saw Dar, shi ying & cheryl.. den we take bus..
shi ying actually ask me y nvr hug her, coz she scared fall down also..
ought to get her a bf soon.. i don wan to be shared by 2 girls.. hahas..
Den at mos burger, i did e most stupid thing ah! i bite e french fries le,
den i ask dar wan anot, she say don wan.. den shi ying say wan, n i
actually feed her la! OMG man.. how blur of me.. hahas! den send dar home..
after tat go home.. took so long la.. but its worth spending sometime,
just to see my girl la.. =p

Yay! its e new year already, a new year ahead, hoping it to be smooth sailing =p
Spend e last day of 2007 with June, Shi Ying & Joseph.. Suppose to watch movie tgt,
but i laze at home.. hahas! den they all come my hse, & start usin friendster le..
spend quite some time at my hse, den go tiong bahru.. nowadays go places i don go -.-
nvm la, pei my girl.. sometimes i wonder, is she really worth me loving her so much..
but no offence, she my girl, i ought to.. so after tat went to her hse.. stay there till 10..
ate abit there, play with her bro.. her mum really over concerned bout her le..
but nth i can do la.. Just hope our the love wont fade away..
New Year Resolution, wanna be with my girl till the very end.. =D

1 stick + 1 point
2 hours gaming + 1 point
Sleep after 12mn + 1 point
Spend more than $50 a day + 5 point
No all of the above - 1 point
Hit 100, straight back to zer0. payment time.